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Starting count: 21,543 words
Ending count: 25,006 words
That is 3,463 words for day nine. Not my best, but this was the hardest day to write. I think I hit a wall of not wanting to take the time to write. There are so many other things I need to be doing, important things, and my mind tries to tell me that writing a novel is a waste of time. It is not going to pay the bills or make me happy. It just feels like it is in the way. I know this is just my mind screwing with me, but I really wish NaNo was over so I could have free time for me, not for writing a vanity project.
Worst of all, I am pushing myself to the brink. In nine days I have hit the halfway point. That is too much and I know it. But I can;t help myself. I want to hit 50K so I can throw my hands up and say I am done. I can always come back to this story, make it better, and fill in the gaps. But right now, at this moment, I just want it to be over with.
Grr....
Ending count: 25,006 words
That is 3,463 words for day nine. Not my best, but this was the hardest day to write. I think I hit a wall of not wanting to take the time to write. There are so many other things I need to be doing, important things, and my mind tries to tell me that writing a novel is a waste of time. It is not going to pay the bills or make me happy. It just feels like it is in the way. I know this is just my mind screwing with me, but I really wish NaNo was over so I could have free time for me, not for writing a vanity project.
Worst of all, I am pushing myself to the brink. In nine days I have hit the halfway point. That is too much and I know it. But I can;t help myself. I want to hit 50K so I can throw my hands up and say I am done. I can always come back to this story, make it better, and fill in the gaps. But right now, at this moment, I just want it to be over with.
Grr....
