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chrisbrad ([personal profile] chrisbrad) wrote2009-11-09 07:40 pm
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NaNo: Day 9

Starting count:  21,543 words
Ending count: 25,006 words

That is 3,463  words for day nine. Not my best, but this was the hardest day to write. I think I hit a wall of not wanting to take the time to write. There are so many other things I need to be doing, important things, and my mind tries to tell me that writing a novel is a waste of time. It is not going to pay the bills or make me happy. It just feels like it is in the way. I know this is just my mind screwing with me, but I really wish NaNo was over so I could have free time for me, not for writing a vanity project.

Worst of all, I am pushing myself to the brink. In nine days I have hit the halfway point. That is too much and I know it. But I can;t help myself. I want to hit 50K so I can throw my hands up and say I am done. I can always come back to this story, make it better, and fill in the gaps. But right now, at this moment, I just want it to be over with.

Grr....
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[personal profile] celestinenox 2009-11-10 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
Okay, totally seriously here, if you're only driving yourself so hard out of a desire to finish, and not out of love for the story or the process of writing it, then NaNo probably isn't something for you. NaNo is a crazy-making time, no one's ever pretended otherwise, and you do have a lot going on right now.

It's not a real competition, it's all informal. No one will think less of you if real life or even your own personal feelings about the process force you to withdraw.

:)
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[personal profile] celestinenox 2009-11-10 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
(Though, this wall of OH GODS WHAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO WHY AM I EVEN TRYING is normal, too... you're hitting it early because you're driving yourself.)
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[personal profile] chrisbrad 2009-11-10 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
It isn't fun at the moment. I was really enjoying the challenge. I love my story, I do. But I hate it right now.

You know what is going on in my life, and that has a lot to do with the sudden change. I am thinking I may take today off from writing (or write just a little bit tonight).

Things are just overwhelming right now without NaNo. If I could make writing be my escape from life, that would be awesome. But that isn;t happening at the moment.

But we will see. Things at work are going to be better today, and maybe with a no-worries NaNo day, I might perk up about things. Grr.

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